“There are not three levels of spiritual life – worship, waiting, and work. Yet some of us seem to jump like spiritual frogs from worship to waiting, and from waiting to work. God’s idea is that the three should go together as one.” – Oswald Chambers, My Utmost For His Highest
I’m a very eager person. If I remember something I want to do, I have to do it right then. I don’t want to wait to get it done. (This is sadly not the case with things I DON’T want to do, but I’m working on it.) In BSF this morning, my group was discussing God’s promise to Abraham (or Abram, then). I can just see the look on his face when God told him he would have a son. It was probably a mixture of shock and awe, which probably turned a little sarcastic over the years as he failed to see the promise fulfilled.
I’m waiting, at the moment. And if you want to know for what, keep reading. Remember how I said Magpie Eclectic Press was going to publish Monster? Well, the day arrived when I’d told them it was theirs. I was feeling insanely happy about it, but in the middle of the happiness was this annoying litte twingy feeling that I was doing something I shouldn’t. I couldn’t think why I would have that feeling, so I pressed on – we were even working on getting the cover done by Saimain, one of my favorite artists of all time. And yet, the more I thought and talked and prayed about it, I heard that still, small, personally inconvenient voice saying ‘wait.’
So, after some mental protesting and digging in my heels, I gave in and decided to let God have his way. I told the publisher that I couldn’t do this yet; I had to wait. Maybe I’m waiting for the other publishers to reply, maybe I’m just waiting for a miracle – but I’m waiting.
I tell you, after three days I felt like Abraham. “Okay, God, it’s not happening, sooo…where’s my Plan B?” But it’s a learning process, really; trusting God. I want Monster to get published so badly that sometimes I ache – especially when I have an opportunity to have it published sitting right in front of me, tantalizing and within reach…but I’m waiting. Because when God asks you to wait, it’s because He has something awesome in store.