The Ghost in the Machine

WARNING: Spoilers, sweetie. You’ve been forewarned.

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So a week ago we went to the midnight (read: 8:00 p.m. Georgians retire early) showing of Captain America: The Winter Soldier, and if you’ve been around me for any length of time you know exactly how deep-rooted my feelings for this story (read: Bucky. And everyone else, but mostly Bucky) are. I was hoping with every bone in my body that the second Captain America movie would be about the winter soldier, and lo and behold, my wish was granted - more heartbreakingly and beautifully than I had dared to imagine. James Barnes is the only character in the Marvel universe to trump my affection for Loki. Enough people have asked why I feel this way that I thought, “Why not – I’m going to write a dissertation about him.” Leaving aside the brilliant acting on Sebastian Stan’s part (it helped that I’ve been a fan of his for several years) and just focusing on the character, I put forth a paper that will hopefully help explain a few of my (very strong) feelings on the subject. So without further ado, ladies and gentlemen, I present:

The Ghost in the Machine

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In defense of the Winter Soldier

“I don’t think he’s the kind you save. He’s the kind you stop.”

buckyyyyIt starts with his name. ‘Winter Soldier’ was a phrase used in World War II for a soldier who would do what was required, no matter the danger or the pain. A winter soldier was someone you could lean your full weight on and know they would carry you until their legs broke and their lungs collapsed.

                Sergeant James Barnes was such a man. When no one wanted anything to do with Steve Rogers, Bucky stepped down off his pedestal and offered him a hand. He was no fair-weather friend – he would stay by Steve until the end of the line.

                Before the war broke out, Bucky was Steve’s rock, his brother in everything but blood. He gave Steve protection and shoulders to stand on, and in return he gained a friend, the best person he had ever known. They were two Brooklyn boys who saw past the faces they wore to the hearts beneath.

                But where Steve was softhearted and merciful, Bucky took no guff. He was used to defending the weaker man, and like Steve, had a strong distaste for bullies and those who preyed on the defenseless. When Bucky was shipped off to war, he found his boyish view of war as an adventure shattered; ripped apart by grenades, drowned in blood and buried in the dirt along with countless comrades. Capture by HYDRA was one of the worst endings a life could have – everyone knew that to die at the hands of the Nazi deep science division was to die in agony.

                The 107th held out hope for a rescue, but weeks passed and men died; killed for weakness, or murdered in Zola’s experiments. Tim Dugan, one of the future Howling Commandoes, said that nobody who went in to the experimentation room came out again.

                Nobody, that is, except Bucky Barnes. Steve finds his best friend half-conscious and strapped to a table, repeating the same thing over and over – name, rank, and serial number.

                Things only repeated under interrogation and torture. Even after Bucky had given up hope of rescue, his honor and duty to his country remained.

                Bucky sees Steve’s transformation, and his only reaction after a shocked smile is, “I thought you were smaller.” Some have said this is only because he was dazed, that his reaction would have been different if he was completely himself, but this attitude carries onto the bridge after Schmidt begins the destruction of the facility. With a broken bridge and a chasm of fire between him and his friend, Steve says, “Go!” Bucky’s immediate response, even after weeks of torture and pain, is, “No! Not without you.”

                Captain America and the 107th make it back to their base, but Bucky is not the same man he was when he left. In many ways, Bucky never did come back. He’s darker, changed by captivity. His love for Steve shines through as he raises a cheer for Captain America, but his face falls, and it isn’t until Steve seeks his face out that Bucky smiles. He’s putting on a show for his best friend, hiding the confused, broken pieces that ask what happened to him? Why will he need me now? How did our roles change so suddenly? What am I going to do?

                He has returned from hell to a world where he is overshadowed by a shined-and-polished monument to his friend. Loyalty defeats resentment, but the carefree boy died in HYDRA’s lab and Bucky is now a haunted man, willing to cover his hands in dirt and blood and quiet anger.

                Captain America isn’t the man he knows – he’s seen the true Steve, and that is who he’s willing to fight for. In an interesting moment, a HYDRA soldier surprises Steve, only to be cut down by a perfect shot to the head. Steve turns around, and his expression changes from concern to surprise to puzzlement when he sees Bucky, a sniper rifle in his hands and a stone-cold shade in his eyes. This is a side to Bucky Steve never saw and does not possess – the unflinching killer. Because Steve has not yetbucky35 realized that Bucky may have entered Austria, but the Winter Soldier came out.

                Bucky’s new status as ‘sidekick’ is a bitter taste to swallow – he is overlooked in favor for Steve, and even remarks with a strained laugh, “I’m turning into you. This is like some horrible dream.” His loyalty is still strong and he even jokes with Steve now and then, trying to bring some semblance of their old normality into the present where everything is different.

                They’re an unstoppable team – until Bucky saves the life of his Captain and plunges, not to his death, but to his demise. He is given the same serum as Schmidt and Steve, and his qualities – what he is truly made of – are amplified.

                Loyalty. Willingness. Tenacity.

                He goes from the perfect soldier to the perfect supersoldier, a weapon of mass destruction. For seventy-two years he is put in cryosleep, awoken, told to kill, told to report, repaired and frozen again. He no longer sees himself as a person, or even human. He is ‘the Asset,’ a tool to be welded by those in charge. He tears through any opening he can find and when there is none, he makes one. He gets the job done and takes down anything in his way.

                “He’s a ghost,” Fury tells Steve about the Winter Soldier, and he is right in more ways than one.

                The Winter Soldier doesn’t question.

                Until he sees a man on a bridge, and the man looks straight at him, and calls him a name.

                “Bucky?”

                He doesn’t remember Bucky, but he knows this man. He falters, confused, uncertain – and then panics, throwing a wild shot at Steve and running back to the people he hates and serves and knows. But this man on the bridge dug a needle in his mind, messed with his head. His overseers describe his mood as ‘unstable’ and ‘erratic’ when he returns. Pearce demands a report, and when the Asset does not immediately respond, strikes his face. The Asset doesn’t flinch, and we see how fully in their control he is. He is captive in a room, sitting – untied – surrounded by men he could easily destroy.

                “That man on the bridge,” he says with single-mindedness, voicing his own thought for perhaps the first time in years. “Who was he?”

                “You met him earlier this week on another assignment,” is the vague response.

                “I knew him,” says the Winter Soldier. Pierce, upset by his Asset’s insistence, gives us a lot of insight. Bucky has been treated like an abused child – beaten, praised, sent to do horrible things, and put back in cryosleep as soon as he began to think.

                Bucky lifts his eyes. “But I knew him,” he repeats, and it’s written across every line on his face. He needs to know, so desperately wants it to be real, to remember something that was his; and he knows the pain his question will bring. He asks it anyway. His face shutters, resigned and bitter, as he’s strapped down. He opens his mouth willingly but resentfully, to bite the bullet, and yet we see the fear as his mind is once more reduced to a blank slate.

                He’s sent to take down Steve once more, but this time there is no mask, no faceless, emotionless battle. This fight is raw; the Winter Soldier torn in pieces, fighting his best friend, fighting to kill his questions and their consequences. It becomes a battle between men, not machines.

                “You know me,” Steve pleads.

                “No, I don’t,” Bucky screams, afraid to admit the other man is right. The man who saved his life, even as he bled out from a bullet wound.

                “You’re my friend,” says Steve, throwing down his shield; the blue star sacrificed for the red.

                “You’re my mission,” the soldier snarls. Instinct, fury, bewilderment and agony can’t overcome that one loose thread in his mind, no matter how hard he tries, and as Steve, bloodied and bruised, manages, “I’m with you…to the end of the line,” the soldier freezes.

                He watches Steve fall, paralyzed by that one tiny, overwhelming thought.

                And for reasons he can’t explain or reason, he follows. He pulls Steve – oblivious, unconscious, mission – out of the water.

                He walks away.

                He walks away, a ghost in search of his human; a winter soldier in search of a man.

                In search of Bucky Barnes.

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Footnote: This is not a complete article. There are many other things I could talk about; from the metal arm to the fight choreography and beyond; if you want me to expound any more, just ask the questions in the comments. ^_^

a tale of two sisters

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I would ordinarily write something like this on her birthday, especially with her 18th coming up, but I won’t be here for her birthday; I’ll be across the country. So today, I’m going to take a moment to brag about my baby sister. and moreover, the things she loves doing that I don’t (and probably should).

She loves being in the kitchen. She can knit; something I never had the knack or patience for. She’s a much kinder, more thoughtful person than I will ever be. I don’t know how many nights we’ve stayed up past midnight talking ourselves to sleep, or how many times we’ve finished each other’s sandwiches, or how many times we’ve jinxed ourselves by talking at the same time. Our relationship is 50% love and 50% private jokes, and I love that about us.

She never objects when I strangle and/or smack her during an emotional movie. She can crack me up with a single look. She knows who my favorite character will be by the first time they open their mouth (or sooner). She’s the shortest in the family and I will forever tease her about it, but to clarify – she isn’t short. She makes me coffee when I don’t even ask for it. She’s the Anna to my Elsa. The years when we hated each other and got into daily fights are gone, but we still anger and annoy each other constantly and still we manage to be the best of friends. Some people think our relationship is confusing, but I don’t.

We’re just sisters. And it’s what we do.

Getting to Know Skata, Round Four

I’m fully aware that this post is long overdue, but don’t worry – I’m giving Skata through part of April to finish up all the questions. Also, if you have more questions, please put them in the comment section of this post – it makes them easier to keep up with that way.

1. How old was Em when you married her (and is ‘Em’ a nickname)? Em had just turned twenty-one when I married her. Em is short for Emmaline. She always thought it was too fancy. I’d known her for three months before I proposed – patience isn’t really my strong point.

2. Coke or Pepsi? I was always more of a Dr Pepper kinda guy.

3. What guns do you own? I’ve got a shortened Remington 870 and a Smith and Wesson 500 revolver. I got other things, too; my favorite non-gun weapon’s probably my Barnett Ghost 400 crossbow.

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This is the trunk of my car. I left it in a parking lot before I entered the swamp.

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4. Would you ever adopt a kid? I might hang onto it until I found someone who would, but I can’t drag a kid around my kinda life.

5. I bet you look stunning in leather jackets – do you ever wear them? All the time.

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6. Do you work out? My lifestyle’s a workout in itself, but if the area’s conducive I’ll probably start doing pullups or something.

7. Do you exercise your mind as well as your biceps? I do crossword puzzles.

8. What would be your email if you had one? Do you have one? No; I just use my phone. If I had one it’d probably be rawstake@whatever.com

9. Would you be the kind of guy to leave a “do not disturb” sign on your hotel room door? Does house-keeping freak you out? I’d leave a do not disturb sign if I was doin’ something I didn’t want to be disturbed at. House-keeping doesn’t freak me out unless the housekeeper’s trying to kill me.

10. How do you feel about the rewrite? I like it. I’ve got better weapons, and people don’t all sound like they’re out of a bonnet movie.

11. What are your feelings toward your country? Country’s in a mess and if I could reboot it, I would.

12. On a scale of 1 to 10, how much does Angel annoy you? Does the scale only go to 10? That’s stupid.

13. If you could travel back in time to any time period, what would you choose? The war between the states. There were a lot of vampire territory wars goin’ on then.

14. Do you like ducks? What is this, National Treasure?

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15. What are your pet peeves? Cats. Cats are my pet peeve.

16. Where do you get the money to ditch your job and go hunting? Some of it’s money I saved working at the ranch. The rest of it I earn doing odd jobs on the side. Plus you save money if you sleep outside and don’t mind killing your own food.

17. What’s your biggest fear? That something’ll happen to someone I care about, and I won’t be able to protect them.

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18. If the opportunity was presented to you, how far would you go to get Em back? I’d go to hell if I had to.

19. What did you think of vampires and other nonhumans before you launched your revenge strike against Samuel? I hated ‘em. Bloodsuckers are nothin’ but trouble, and I’ve known that since before I could talk.

20. Do your plans involve killing Angel? Not unless he makes me. I do think he has a death wish.

21. Who do you hate the least (of those who are still alive)? Easton. Don’t hate Easton. She can be stubborn and ignore what I tell her, but I’m glad she’s alive.

22. Do you have any nervous tics or habits? I break things when I’m upset, if that counts.

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23. Have you ever watched kitten videos on Youtube? I already told you, I hate cats. Even baby ones. So no.

24. If you could choose your last words, what would you say? I don’t know. I’ve always figured I’d die apologizing to somebody.

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25. Where-ish in Texas are you from? I grew up just outside of Jefferson.

26. Do you ever wear hats? I used to wear some out on the ranch, but I don’t anymore.

dean cowboy27. Favorite color? I like dark leather brown and hunter green. Not big on camo, though. Don’t want to walk around looking like Duck Dynasty.

28. What are three words that you feel describe you? Determined and Purposefully Obtuse.

29. What are three words that you WISH described you? Kind. Cautious. Peaceful.

30. There are at least 14 girls in the world who are in love with you: are you okay with that?

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